GIRL ON THE LINE

An achingly authentic depiction of cycling through depression and healing.

Journey has just survived a suicide attempt, and her attempts to pick up her life again range from volunteering at a crisis hotline to avoiding her close friend Marisol and ex-boyfriend, Jonah, and taking classes at a community college that will double as credits to finish high school. She develops a crush on her classmate Etta, which is requited, but her depression and struggle with therapy and psychiatric medications make bisexual Journey feel like too much of a burden to be in a relationship, much as she longs to be her girlfriend. Her divorced parents are reeling from Journey’s trauma, rare parents in YA who are as multidimensional as the teens. The story is told in an alternating past/present format, though present-tense narration throughout and unsteady pacing make that hard to follow. Gardner’s depiction of mental illness, both through Journey’s own continual suicidal ideation and her therapists’ and doctors’ explanations of the difference between ideation and attempt, is deft and thoughtful. Trigger warnings are absolutely necessary, but the masterful handling gives the book bibliotherapeutic potential for readers struggling with the same issues or those who want to better understand the Journeys in their lives. Most characters are coded White; Etta has brown skin, and cosmopolitan, multilingual Marisol is French and Puerto Rican.

An incredibly tough but worthwhile read.