I'LL KEEP YOU CLOSE

Discovering your family’s mysterious past can be eye-opening.

Not to mention disorienting. Eleven-year-old Jeska, known as Jesje, lives in the Netherlands and is familiar with her mother’s unexplained anger, dark moods, emotionally triggered responses, frequent playing of Mozart, and admonitions to be invisible and that “no one can be trusted.” She notices that their household is somber in atmosphere compared with that of her best friend, Lienke, and seeks solace with a cat she names Moz (short for Mozart). When her mother’s mother, Bomma, becomes confused in the nursing home she lives in since leaving Antwerp, Jesje investigates and learns painful details of the past. Bomma mistakes Jesje for her niece, Hesje, a beloved companion of Jesje’s mother, who was “transported” at a tender age to a concentration camp. Debut author Vestergen tells this true story of her family’s previously unrevealed identity and history. She is a descendant of Emanuel Querido, a Dutch publisher of an earlier generation (and inspiration for this book’s U.S. publisher). Setting this book apart from other Holocaust survivor stories are the language and imagery, a family story that focuses on very young children, the Dutch setting, and the attempts of a sensitive young person to understand mystifying adult behavior and PTSD—in its specificity, it finds the universal.

Multigenerational trauma artfully revealed from a child’s point of view.