TELL THE REST

Two conversion therapy survivors go back to the site of their trauma, hoping the truth will set them free.

Delia Barnes, 38, returns to her Oregon hometown after her wife leaves her and she’s fired from her coaching job at a Massachusetts college. Is this a fresh start or a reversion to adolescence? After all, she’ll be the girls’ basketball coach at her old high school, Rockside, where her ex-boyfriend Jonas is principal and her brother, Dylan, a custodian. The whole area harbors troubling memories. Twenty-five years ago, Pastor Cody Quade found her kissing a girl named Shawna in New Day Church’s basement and arranged for her to be sent to Celebration Camp, where she was subjected to conversion therapy until she—with Ernest Wrangham and Cal, two other gay teenagers—ran away. Ernest, too, has been drawn back to Oregon as an adult; every few chapters, the novel cuts to his perspective. A poet with a boyfriend back in Brooklyn, he’s in Portland for a year to teach at Lewis & Clark College. These two central characters orbit each other, and the camp, as they come to terms with the spiritual abuse they suffered there. “Basketball as addiction” fuels Delia’s anger issues and means her self-esteem relies on a state championship win. Yet redemption sneaks in by other means—she shows compassion to her players and accepts the new pastor’s friendship. There are no simple recovery narratives here. Flashbacks fill in Delia and Ernest’s past, long withholding the worst of what happened at Celebration Camp to maintain tension. The compelling leads, engaging blow-by-blows of basketball games, and small-town feuds ground a heartening, issues-driven book. Secondary characters shine, too: nonbinary student Mickey; philosophical janitor Robin; even Ernest’s cats, Virginia Woolf and Audre Lorde.

This satisfyingly nuanced story tackles sexuality and spiritual abuse, offering connection and redemption.