MY ALTERED STATES

Strassman chronicles his experiences with psychedelic drugs.

The author’s recounting of his “psychospiritual growth” follows his story from boyhood to medical school and beyond, detailing his slow introduction to the world of altered consciousness. He recalls the desire to reinforce his “masculine qua masculine credentials” among his peers, his first rum-and-Coke (“I gulp down the rest of the drink,” he writes. “It tastes better than beer, that’s for sure. I drink two more”), and his increasingly serious experiences with heavier drugs. Strassman breaks down these experiences into considerations of one’s “set” (“our mental set includes long-standing personality, habits, and coping style”), “setting” (“everything else, the ‘not-you’ part of the experience, the outside world”), and “cause,” the actual mechanism of the experience, whether drugs or more mundane practices like breath control. In a series of illustrated chapters, the author takes readers inside the world of psychedelic drug experimentation, addressing both the ecstatic aspects and the grubby, frightening sides (the book opens with a scene of Strassman fighting his way through a rough drug experience: “Panic stirs as I begin sinking into the bed. I jerk upright before I descend much further”). Strassman writes with an engaging directness—his prose deftly toggles between sarcastic observations and sincere confessions, bringing heartfelt intensity to his observations on love, heartbreak, therapy, and particularly the wild experiences he’s had under the influence of various psychedelic drugs. His descriptions are remarkably vivid: “I inhale deeply and my entire body expands just beyond its normal boundaries, feeling nearly weightless,” he writes. “The sweet dampness pours across my lips, past my teeth, over my tongue.” Readers who give the entire spectrum of psychedelic drugs a wide berth probably won’t find themselves tempted to indulge Strassman’s chronicle, but every reader will find this account fascinating.

A lively and intensely personal addition to the drugs-memoir genre.