HOW TO LIVE FREE IN A DANGEROUS WORLD

A nonbinary, disabled, Black writer describes how travel has informed their journey to liberation.

When prize-winning poet Lawson, author of This Is Major, was 39, a doctor told them they were dying. The author had just been diagnosed with Ehlers–Danlos syndrome, which caused them chronic pain. In reflecting on their ability to cope with the disease, Lawson writes, “getting healed for me has been about truly letting go, whether that means recovering from convention or from a chronic illness.” To that end, each essay in this collection traces the author’s path to letting go of something that held them back, as well as the role that place played in these transformational moments. In Amherst, Massachusetts, Lawson’s interactions with their students led them to a greater understanding of their own gender and their ultimate rejection of binary thinking. In Bloomington, Indiana, their immersion in drag culture gave them the strength to divorce their philandering husband. In Maastricht, Netherlands, an elder’s planned assisted suicide gave Lawson a new outlook on death and dying. In Venice, Italy, the author came to the realization that “we don’t become beautiful until we believe it.” At the same time, “knowing what you are worth makes you look at the world differently.” Each revelation builds on the next, leading to the final two chapters in Los Angeles and Bermuda, where Lawson outlines their vision for communal healing. Packed with lyrical lines, genuine insight, and ebullient confessions, Lawson’s latest nonfiction book sparkles with vulnerability, sincerity, and poetry. In addition to being masterfully structured, each essay interlocks with the next chapter with an intricacy that infuses the text with a rewarding sense of momentum. Lawson is a gifted chronicler not only of their own personal revolution, but also of the power structures that affect their place in the world.

A stunning essay collection about travel, mortality, and liberation.